We muddled through the next year. How do you restore shattered trust? All of my efforts to be a perfect wife clouded my true identity. We’d been married for twenty-one years. Who was I? In all honesty, I didn’t know. I also destroyed Mike’s image of who I was. He thought I was perfect. He … Continue reading The Beginning of the Long Road Back
Life Stories
The Only Year I Burned My Journals
Forty years of journals sit on my bookshelves. Only one year is missing—1985. There was too much pain, too much guilt. I burned them. Now, many years later, I wish I had them. The hard lessons learned forever chiseled and molded my life. In the years since God’s hand of mercy erased words spoken and … Continue reading The Only Year I Burned My Journals
The Reward of Following Holy Spirit
“I’m confused and tired and really at a loss as to what would make me happy.” I scribbled out my prayer to Abba. “We saw the farms in Cameron and Hamilton and liked them both, but they just weren’t home. I just want to unpack once and for all and settle in. I’m not a … Continue reading The Reward of Following Holy Spirit
The Risk of Faith vs. Relationship
We were Missouri residents now. Autumn splashed across the countryside, and we were transfixed. Rolling hills of green trees transformed into a colorful quilt of oranges, yellows, and fiery reds. We’d never seen such beauty. I found myself pulling to the side of the road and parking just to gaze in awe at a tree … Continue reading The Risk of Faith vs. Relationship
One Step Closer to Home
The road to Missouri was hot. We traveled over Labor Day weekend. The three digit temperatures through Nevada, Utah, Wyoming and Nebraska, challenged our patience and our strength. Our caravan of vehicles crawled the mountains at 15mph. We felt like “The Little Engine That Could,” moving at a snail’s pace, but we were moving. We … Continue reading One Step Closer to Home
Movin’ On
Sarah’s birth marked a new beginning for all of us. Still the word about moving remained waiting for an answer. Our sons, Shane and Brett, were by my side to help with Sarah whenever needed. Shane was thirteen and Brett eleven. They took turns feeding her, holding her and even changing her on occasion. Still, … Continue reading Movin’ On
A Change of Course
When God speaks impossibilities to us, we often shake our heads in unbelief. Yet, deep within a seed is planted and it's life cannot be denied. And just as a seed silently transforms and bursts forth days, months, or even years later, it takes time for God's impossibilities to be made visible. Waiting is not … Continue reading A Change of Course
The River Walk
In the fall of 2008, Mike and I went camping in the Colorado mountains. It was a hot, dry summer. The trees and landscape were burnt and crispy. Campfires were forbidden because of the fire danger. But, we found a camping spot right next to a roaring river. It was running fast and full the … Continue reading The River Walk
Hurry Up and Wait
In March 1976, we scrawled the words, “Missouri or Bust,” across butcher paper and taped it to the side of our cab-over camper. We were off on a great adventure, a church conference in Missouri with our seven and nine-year-old sons. Little did we know that our declaration in black marker was prophetic. When we … Continue reading Hurry Up and Wait
The Case of Wandering Eyes
The Case of Wandering Eyes My husband Mike, worked as a deputy sheriff for fifteen years of our marriage. The pay was good the hours were not. Family life was in constant flux as Mike’s hours changed month to month. One month he was up before dawn and home for supper. The next month he worked swing shift, … Continue reading The Case of Wandering Eyes
Hear God's Heart 